Tomorrow I fly off this beautiful island to my hometown, and while my heart always longs for my momma and my family and friends, I always miss this place before I go.
I love my people, I love them hard. I love everything hard I suppose. When I am gone here is what I miss.
I miss the ocean. There is something about the ocean, it makes you feel so small, yet just the sight of it empowers you. When I look out into it, it washes me clean, like my past is so far away, and my future is not mine, and it makes me sit here, right here.
I miss the velvet breeze. The air here feels like silk flowing over your body, and whenever I step off the plane I remember that the air here is better than any air I’ve ever felt. It’s not thick, but it has something inside of it, something Illinois air just doesn’t carry.
I miss the crazy people. Sounds crazy, but I just have no respect for a place that tucks their crazy away, in fact, I don’t even like when seemingly “normal” people hide their own crazy. You all know we have some, and god damn, it is usually funny. Sure, it’s uncomfortable to see at first, nobody likes to see someone take a shit on the side of the road while holding plank on a wall, but every now and again, it isn’t so bad to hear someone screaming “REJOICE” over and over as the walk down the road, and you gotta take the bad with the good.
I miss the sunrise and sunset. I never really gave a shit about seeing the start or finish of the day, but once I did, it’s like a kiss good morning and a kiss goodnight from the universe, and it turns out, the universe is a magnificent make out buddy.
I miss my friends and knowing people everywhere I go.
I miss the simplicity, there is so much hustle and bustle where I am going, and so many people that are so busy. I am not saying that there aren’t busy people here, hell, some people are even busy trying to look busy, but sometimes it just feels like people are hurrying for nothing, and fucking angry about it. Maybe I don’t like it because I wasted a lot of years being that way.
But I don’t miss the bugs, I’ll never miss them.